An emptiness rules at its core, a rottenness, a silence when one of you retires to bed without saying good night, when you eat together without conversation, when the phone’s passed wordlessly to the other. An emptiness when every night you lie in the double bed, restlessly awake, astounded at how closely hate can nudge against love, can wind around it sinuously like a cat. An emptiness when you realize that the loneliest you’ve ever been is within a marriage, as a wife.
- When I lay my head on the pillow at night I can say I was a decent person today. That’s when I feel beautiful.
- Look, the world’s comforter, with weary gait, His day’s hot task hath ended in the west: The owl, night’s herald, shrieks-’tis very late; The sheep are gone to fold, birds to their nest; And coal-black clouds, that shadow heaven’s light, Do summon us to part, and bid good night.